Lonely........being alone or the feeling of being left out. Everybody feels lonely sometimes. You feel like no one's around, nobody's there for you & you feel so low. But have you ever felt so lonely that the ones near you feel like they are fading away? You're lost in your own world in your own thoughts. All the bad times of the past return back in your mind. You feel like sitting away from everybody else. You get out of the house without any destination just your half conscious mind leading you the way. You just keep walking silently but with a world war going inside your mind. Sometimes you just want to hurt yourself. The moment of desperation to smoke a cigarette when you already stopped smoking. You try to call your friends but all of them are busy. Random questions about life start to smash your brain, You become so pessimist. You have nowhere to go but you just don't wanna go home at the time. You ride any bus you find empty & get a seat at the last window. Travel by the bus not knowing where it goes but it doesn't matter. Listen to sad songs. Roam around till evening. Get home late. But the moment you find company with friends or specially your loved one & talk with them, that damn feeling is so wonderful......
